Prologue: Mikayraylynn

Hey there fellow bloggers. My name is Mickenzie K. Brock. I am going to start this out by describing a little bit about myself and how I came about the miraculous world. What many don’t know is what the “K” in my name stands for Kaitlynn. My mother wanted to name me Mikayraylynn Kaitlynn-Marie Brock and for short people would call me Mickey. Worst name ever. My great grandma Maxine was called Mickey for short and my mom wanted to keep it in the family I suppose. My dad didn’t agree with the completely jumbled up name and wanted to name me Mickenzie. My mom still wanted to find a way to have that nickname come about so instead of spelling my name Mac or Mc she decided on Mick. I must say growing up I hated my name because my last name is a first name and my first name is a last name so on the days we had a substitute teacher and they’ll call out for a Brock Mickenzie and a little girl yells “here!” they become a little surprised. Later on down the road I asked my mom again why she spelled my name like that and she always told me the same story but little did I know that my great grandma Maxine wasn’t really happy with her name either. My great grandma’s name was really Chlola Maxine Reece. I never thought I could ever hear a name as bad as mine until I heard about that. My grandma was a pretty lady but had nothing but an ugly name. After hearing about that story I started to appreciate my name a little more.

My parents became divorced when I was only six years old with two older brothers. Not long after my mom re-married to a man with two children of his own and then my dad re-married to a women with four more children. I’ve always been the middle man when it came to all my siblings because I was always so quiet and nice but I also kept to myself. At my mom’s I was the oldest girl and at my dad’s I was the youngest of everyone.  Growing up I had it a little rough. My parents were constantly fighting over my brother but not for all the right reasons. My step mom pushed my dad to fight for us because she and my mom resent each other so much and all she wanted to do was rub us in her face. My mom wanted custody of my brother and I because she could start getting child support on us. There is a big difference between my step parents. My step dad always supported my mom no matter what but he kept out of the fight for it was technically none of his concern. My step monster, oh sorry, Step mother, liked getting in to everyone’s business and getting under my mom’s skin as much as she could. Going in and out of court all my life and growing up with two different families who were complete opposites really defined why I am the person I am today.

Too Much Work..

Reflecting on the words of Dorothy Day the great is a bit hard to follow. “No one has the right to sit down and feel hopeless. There’s too much work to do.” Many have different views as to what that “work” should be but in my view for my generation I think it focuses on education and responsibility. If you can sit around and mope about how bad your life sucks then go out and make something of it. People now have the habit of complaining about every job they have but they have no right for they have the opportunity to change things. They can maybe continue their education to start a career versus dropping out and maintaining a small part-time job to raise a family. Instead of lying around or partying and being severely dependent, this generation now needs to become independent. This generation needs to take advantage of what they have when the opportunity strikes them first. Instead of “taking a break” between high school and college students just need to start back up after that summer so they will continue their studies and will have a better chance of not being behind and graduating. Now a days people think that they want to take the easy way out. Some things that are happening more and more are kids dropping out of school thinking that they are too good to get an education, which they will never need anything they sit in class listening to in the future. When their parents stop paying for them they need money so they settle with a part time job. Job after job and with little to no opportunity a baby comes along and makes things three times worse. So now there is a child who has two young uneducated parents who can barely make it by who now for the rest of their lives will be balancing between poor jobs just to keep up with the bills. What this generation needs to realize is that the “easy way” may be easy in the beginning but it becomes harder in the long run. This something that I believe should only take common sense to realize but that was only because I was raised to think so. I think that what happens with this generation is really effected by how they are raised by the generation beforehand. Learning this lesson really affects my future as a leader. Knowing this had brought me to want to help those who don’t understand what they are messing up on. I had a friend who had dropped out of school and asked me to go with them to their GED classes. I was sitting there in a small room with a mix between people who were younger and older than I. Some were old enough to be my grandparents. I was sitting there during the whole presentation thinking to myself, “This is so easy.. it’s almost insulting.” Everything that they were going over was things that I remember learning in fourth grade, I felt so bad. How could these people like what they are doing? I was the only person in the entire room other than the instructor who is still in school. Everyone was asking me for help and had questions that were so obvious that I just couldn’t believe where their education has gone. I want to help those who don’t want to continue their education realize that that is what society is all about today, education. Seeing all these examples has really helped me want to continue my school and has given me the confidence to know that I will overcome my goals and I will have a great future.

In The Next 10 Years..

Where will I see myself in ten years? Ha, well, I don’t even know where I’m going to see myself this weekend. I don’t really know what life is set out for me but I have a pretty good idea of what I want to happen. In the next ten years I would want my college to be finished. I will be a graduate of MSSU with my LpN for nursing and already have my career set up and in line. I want my LpN because it’s more hands-on and I really don’t think I will want to be a paper pusher all my career. Who knows? Maybe I will even still be in college furthering my education to find a better career of a prenatal nurse or maybe even an Obstetrician. Hopefully I will be married with a family. Ever since I was little I knew that I want to get a family going as soon as possible. I absolutely love kids and I couldn’t wait to become an independent woman with all the responsibilities as a mother. I will be living in a two story house in the country with lots of land but close enough neighbors for the kids to be able to interact with a community. I don’t want any small dogs, no way. I want a St. Bernard or Great Dane. Haven’t made up my mind but they will be outside dogs. And maybe one cat. We will have horses and tractors and cows, you know the works. I want to live near the water, a lake somewhere or creek so my kids can enjoy all of the outdoor adventures I loved when I was younger. I won’t be a strict parent but I won’t be a push over either. There will be rules and they will be enforced. I am more towards the old fashioned way of doing things with raising kids. Not the whole kneeling on grits or spanking sort of thing, but more of responsibilities. I can’t guarantee that this will be the exact way things will go because I am sure I will change my mind a million times down the road but this is just an idea of what I would like things to be like in the next 10 years.

In Time Of A Crisis

I’ve learned the hard way who Not to call during a crisis and that would probably be my mom. I was on my way to school and had just picked up my friend. I was sixteen still driving my first car, my ’91 Honda Accord, and I had no idea what was about to come. I came up on the busiest intersection and it was hard to see for the sun was in my eyes and there were other cars making illegal turning lanes. I asked my friend to tell me if I was clear on the other side as I looked towards the left and she said yes so I began to drive. All of a sudden a huge green van came hurdling down the road swerving into my lane and hit my front end spinning the car completely around. Evidently this person though it was a tank because they just kept of driving dragging my car down the road. The first thing I did was call 911. They then tried to contact my mom who they couldn’t get ahold of, so they tried her cell. Still no answer. I hit panic mode. I then called my brother C.J. who was on his way back to Arkansas. Out of the entire crisis my brother made it there before my mom who only lived a few blocks away. To be honest, I was more glad to see my brother for he showed more panic and emotion then my mom did. When I finally got ahold of her to show up she asked me what I kept calling for because she was on the phone with my Aunt Sandy. Really? Man, I was upset. So during a crisis I always call my brother first because he will be the one there to help me no matter what.  

Are We Alone? I Think Not..

It is going to be a little bit hard to be able to answer this question for it isn’t one of the specifics. Are we alone? Hmm.. I don’t believe we are. We are never alone. There is always going to be someone or something out there for us to discover or even of which we already know. If this question is leading more towards the input of alien life, well then in a way I do believe it. We are just one planet out of many and we don’t know what there is further out in space. If Earth can have all the necessities of life, how do we know that there isn’t another planet that does so as well. Now answering this question in more of a modern down to earth answer of whether we’re alone, my answer is once again, no. If there ever comes a time where you may feel that there is no one out there for you and you’re alone always remember that there is always someone who loves you and who would do anything for you and that would be God. All you have to do is keep faith and never give up and God will lead you into the direction to where you’ll never be alone.

Fantasy Summer

If finances and family considerations were not an issue I would spend my entire summer different from what I do now. Ever since I turned sixteen and was able to have a job, I've always worked my summer away. It would only be a miracle that I would get my summer off to where I can really enjoy myself. The first thing I would do is take a huge road trip with some friends. I don't really care where we go or end up it will just be the experience that counts. We will look up some of the most random, hardly known, monuments. Then I would go on a weeklong camping trip. I love being outside and being at the lake. I would go with either friends or family; it does not really matter much to me just as long as we can have fun. I'd go swimming every day in creeks, lakes, maybe even a pool here or there. Though many people would talk of going to the ocean or the beach but I am not much into that sort of thing. I have a bit of a fear of sharks, and jelly-fish, and stingrays...even whales, but that's okay, because this girl will not go anywhere where she will be in the air or in the middle of the ocean. No. Thank. You. Although there is one place I have always wanted to go and I would possibly consider going there on this fantasy summer. New Orleans, Louisiana. I have always wanted to go there for three reasons. First reason being, I've always wanted to experience Marti Gras first hand with all the floats and parades and wonderfulness. Second reason would be because I really want to see an alligator. I think it would be awesome to be driving around and be able to say, "Hey look, an alligator." all nonchalant like. And my final reason would be because I love how the people talk. It really fascinates me. For some people they like those British accents but not me, a like the southern accents. Every day of my summer I’ll be outside, being free, and enjoying life.

Edumacation

To be educated means to have a better understanding of the environment around you. Being educated helps you have a better future in making money as well as give you the better opportunity in being successful and even having a chance to better your surroundings. Education does not mean that you are better than a person without unless that person makes it apparent that they have no desire to show edification. Education does not always make you live more responsibly, it really just depends on what and how you were educated. If you were educated in a very strict obedient manor than that later on can turn into being a kind of person who once they get that little breath of freedom they’d rather hyperventilate and go crazy, than maintain a steady breath of what they grew to know. Like said before the responsibilities of an educated person vary on how they were educated and how much they wanted to further their education. A person who was had been raised in a small town school where they got along with everyone they grew up with then they would probably have that inspiration from their families and friends to want to continue their education and make themselves have a great future and support a family. There are also those who were raised to not want to continue their education so they have no responsibilities whatsoever and just live as they please and do what they want, thinking that nothing can catch them. Education is actually based on how one was raised. For example: all my life both sides of my family have always expected me to be the better kid out of all my siblings and cousins, but now that I am older and have the ability to think on my own I’m not so sure that I want to jump into college so quickly because now I have the better understanding of the responsibilities that come with it. I am going to college, there is no doubt about that but I think I’m going to go for what I want to do and expect of me, not what my parents do.