Never Say Good-Bye

There comes a time in life where you just have to let something go no matter how dear to you it or they are. I really do not want to do this right now; I honestly do not want to do it ever. It is so hard to bring this out for I know that it will be the last time to say goodbye. There is so much I want to share with you whether it is physical experiences such as created a bucket list and checking things off one by one and living the dream or  just sitting with you and talking about all our childhood memories and our goals and what-ifs. Everything happens for a reason and for some godly reason our destiny crossed paths and it was meant to be. You were, are, and always will be my best good friend. Just thinking about things and how miserable it is going to be without you here makes me want to just cry but I know that even though after what is going on you would want me to not mope around but to help cheer everybody else up and keep good spirits. I was talking with my mom the other day about our odd humor. Nobody gets us but it was ok because we understood each other, what am I to do now after you are gone? Do you think heaven have visiting hours? If so you better make sure that I am written down every day until it is my turn to venture up there. You just wait, we will drive everyone so nuts up there that they will more than likely kick us out of heaven and send us back to earth through reincarnation as a slug or something.  You will always be in my heart. Every time I see a piece of copy paper I think of you. Remember that time we covered my mom’s entire kitchen with copy paper and then took markers and drew all over it at like 5 in the morning? That was crazy. We were so scared my mom would get mad so we disposed of the evidence but we still have some pictures to remember it by. One thing that I will never forget was that song you wrote for me. It is so near and dear to my heart.

“All the stars,

They never work!

Bumping cars

Pumping gas

Bum bum bum.”

That, my friend, is pure poetry. Our friendship goes together like Nutella and Bananas; Tacos and Ketchup; Oreos and Peanut butter. The point is, we’re so different and you can’t really see us being friends but when we’re put together we are just amazing. I know that this is long and sappy but there is so much I want to talk with you about before you go and you probably don’t want to hear it but I just want to tell you now so you can hear for yourself that I love you best good friend you will always be my Starshine just as long as I’m always your moonbeam. It’s hard for me to say good bye because Shelby was my best friend. We had such a weird humor that nobody understood but we didn’t care. There was never a time that we weren’t together and laughing. We both have one of those laughs that are loud and obnoxious because we were just that awesome.