Unfinished Sentences

1. I usually worry about the littlest things. I tend to stress myself out about things that wouldn’t even matter to the average person. Here lately what I have been worrying about is money. I’ve been without a job for two months and my dad was just recently injured at work so he can no longer work as well. I found and am now working for two restaurants but they are both in Joplin so my income goes towards gas. What I bring home is what we depend on for bills and I’m scared that I won’t meet the standards for our home.

2. I feel angry when people do irritating things. I can sometimes overreact about things that have no reason to be mad over. I have a short fuse and I’m partially bi-polar. Here lately do to all of my stress I’ve been having it has been causing me to have a shorter fuse. One thing that irritates me so bad is when people cause their own drama and then act like they don’t know why everyone hates them and complains about it all of the time. I have problems of my own so why would I want to hear about yours.

3. I’m moody when I’m really stressed out. When I stress about things whether it be school, work, or money, I tend to be a little cranky. I’ll get irritated over the littlest things and snap at anyone even if it’s a minor situation. I’ve noticed that I snap more at the people closest to me because I know that they’ll forgive me. Usually after I’ve had a scene I’ll go back and apologize and explain why I’m so stressed out.

4. I’m happiest when the weekend is here. The weekend is my time to relax. I do work on the weekends but they day I look forward most are Saturdays. On Saturdays I go to Springfield and stay at my buddy’s house and just relax worry free and have a good time. Usually all we do is watch movies and talk but that’s all I need to relax. It gives me a chance to vent and get advice from someone I can really trust and look up to.   

5. I feel confident when I’m at work. When I’m at work I feel like a completely different person. I’m all serious and in the zone. When I work I take things serious so I can get my job done get good tips and go home. I feel great being able to be independent and not have to depend on anyone else. That is one of my biggest things.

6. I feel frustrated when school and work clash. Here recently I was doing track and absolutely loved it. I had everything figured out just fine to where I could do both. But since my dad got hurt I had to take on a second job so now I’ll be working seven days a week and double shifts on the weekends so I had to quit track. I didn’t want to and I miss it so much but it just had to be done.

7. I feel depressed when my mom calls me. My mom and I aren’t on very good terms and we haven’t been for about two years now. After what happened and the cause of me moving back she didn’t even talk to me for the longest time and said I was no longer welcome to her home. Things are getting a little bit better but it’s still a little awkward when I go over to visit or when we have a family gathering. I’ve noticed here recently that my mother only says “I love you” when she wants something from me. Generally that’s supposed to be the other way around, but she’s my mother. I don’t really know, I guess she still has a grudge against me.

8. I am comfortable when I’m around my friend Lumi. When we hangout I can just relax and have no worries. All we usually do is just watch movies and talk. I think it’s the same for him as well because we are both just so busy with work or other life matters and we both stress ourselves out. We give each other someone to talk to about personal things or even just to vent about stuff going on here lately. Hanging out with him just helps me get away from things and really get comfortable and take a load off. If I didn’t have Lumi I’d probably go insane.

9. I feel nervous when my gas light goes off and I have no money. One of my main stress points is about not having gas. There is never a day that goes by that I don’t have to drive. I have to drive about twenty miles just to get to school every day. After school I go to Monett to help with the store and then go home and get ready for actual work and then drive to Joplin and back home. Eighty percent of my day is driving. It has gotten to the point that I can’t sit at my house very long without wanting to go somewhere else. It sucks because I’m broke but I have to have gas to get to school and work. The closest gas station to me from home is eight miles away and their gas isn’t any good. I just always get worried that I’m going to be stuck on the side of the road with no gas and no one to help me making me late to school or work.

10. I feel sentimental when I go see my best friend in Springfield. My friend and I have been crushing on each other for over a year but neither one of us really admitted to it because we were afraid that it would cause problems between our families and my job. When we first met we flirted a little with each other but then realized that he was 23 and I was only 17 so we just stuck to being friends and only talking when we were working together. He waited 9 ½ months until I turned 18 and took me out for my birthday. We’ve been talking since then and each time we hangout we get closer.